Separation

[laughingwillow]

On the other hand, syd, if'n you have certain types of depression the docs may be able to help you with medication. I'm guessing the doc will know best.

Keep us posted, eh?

Good luck today.

lw

[Syd]

I didn't get medicine because I don't want it. That was just one of my spells I get into. We are on a no talking or visiting level right now. As per her request, however I did tell her where I stood in the relationship. She needs time to, well I dont know, but she needs time. I've made plans for next summer seeing as these past two summers have really hurt me. Last summer she went to Napa, CA. This summer she left me. Next summer will be somewhat different, I'm sure something fucked up will happen it's just that I'm going to be doing something other than just sitting around. If she chooses to join me I'd be more than honored if she does not, well I won't spend the rest of my life waiting.

[Veracohr]

Sorry to hear about that Syd. I went through the same thing six months ago. I don't think medication would have been a good idea. It may be hell, but you need to grieve. Keep on truckin'.  

[laughingwillow]

Well, maybe you'll have better luck if you find a partner who shrugs off your "spells" as easily as you do.  

lw

[senorsalvia]

(I hear that)  --- (what LW said)   Good Luck Syd---- senorsal

[space]

Wise words, lw.

Syd, I want what you want to happen to happen.

But keep in mind what a wise man once said:  

If your sweetheart is one in a million, there are six in any large city.

It took me three trips down the aisle (with a few detours) to find someone who could both love me and accept me, period, rather than love me and accept me as a project for improvement.

[Syd]

Current mood: hopeful

This has been the first weekend I have actually had hope for myself since the seperation from my wife. I've been learning a lot of who I have been and who I am now. I still have a long way to go but I am doing my best to survive.

I never paid attention while Tana was cooking for me but now that she has the microwave I have had to learn. I was able to reheat the pasta I made last night, without a microwave! I'm doing my best to accept and cherish the little things in life now.

I believe things may become easier to cope with once I buy a new vehicle and buy/rent a house. First the vehicle then the house. I will do my best to not live in an apartment. It's just not for me and my dogs love the yard.

If Tana, my ex-wife, would still like to give away Becca I won't stop her but I would gladly keep Becca with Rikku and I.

Rikku is a 3 year old brindle boxer and Becca is an 8 month old Doberman, both are female. Check out the pictures!

[jokergrin]

i went through the same thing starting one year ago...and it took me a while to get over.  I think I was healed up pretty well by January, but those 5 months were full of suicidal attempts, thoughts, tears, etc etc...she wanted out and there was nothing I could do to stop her...I tried EVERYTHING.  One year later, I'm so happy being surrounded by a few close friends, and many more not-so-close friends that are still great to hang out with .  
moral of the story: hang in there, it gets better.  
-steve.

[space]

I'm doing my best to accept and cherish the little things in life now.

You got it, Syd--that is something you can build on.  

And jokergrin is right.  It gets better.

[GhostPipe : )]

Srry to hear about what has happen but hang in there it will get better,  and good luck with what you choose to do.

GP