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[judih]

good news. and sounds like an interesting 2 months will be ahead.

so glad to hear, ray

judih

[cenacle]

august 17, 2005
8:23 a.m.
home
Seattle, Washington

job is delayed til the 29th, then the 31st KD & I leave for burning man, finally...the books for our bookstore project are getting made, big ass project, bigger every year...there were some other job lures recently, but thinking on it decided to go with the one in hand and hope it goes well...smaller company than i've been with in awhile...i think smaller still would be better eventually...

what of other than me and yawpings of the daily crawl...i read for news of the lady in texas and her growing protest near the King's retreat...a brave soul, and nothing in her of the hustler or the politician, if those words don't mean the same thing exactly, nearly do...

i think the King's power is waning, as all kings do, but he is nuts like they all are after awhile on the throne, so who knows what button he might push as he sees his time lording the world ending...

eh...

[cenacle]

august 30, 2005
10:31 a.m.
work
Kirkland, Washington

new, better contract job, second day, i am hoping it's going to be better, editing work, looks alright...

leaving for Burning Man fest in hours, it will be about 14 hours on the road to get there tomorrow...hard to believe it is happening *now*...and the ache to join in...

our free bookstore is pretty much ready, packed, tents, food, water, glowsticks...last few details, and onto the path to the desert...

my seventh time and i do not know what to expect, just the hope that it will be like returning home as it has been...bigger, better, good, happy, going

[judih]

enjoy yourselves. It sounds like there's gonna be lots to do within the general revelry high of the BM experience.

don't forget to write!

[cenacle]

september 26, 2005
9:12 a.m.
work
Kirkland, Washington

a month since this journal updated...burning man 2005 was intense, they all are...we gifted out about 1000 books during the day, and rode around the city at night...one night i saw a great unicorn fashioned from playa earth rising from the ground...the burn was great, we saw it up front, marvelled at the fire dancers, and took our wedding vows as the sparks of the burned Man flew overhead...met a guy named Charles from UK, lives near Stonehenge, told us they open it up once a year on summer solstice and all manner of freaks show up to celebrate...

just a challenging is the day to day go since, up at 6 a.m. each day, KD back at classes soon...last weekend we saw "Batman Begins" which is a trippy dark movie...

last weekend 300,000 people marched on Washington DC against the war...can the people help stop another illegal American war? are we that brave and determined? the autumn to come is going to be rough for all...

[cenacle]

october 11, 2005
8:06 a.m.
work
Kirkland, Washington

still here, been about a month and a half now, no sure prospects of how long though, so been jobhunting daily of recent days...KD has a rare disorder called multiple sclerosis, one whose daily med costs a fortune, and very hard to get insurance to cover it, but we are working on it, one learns the deep particulars of love along the way...this morning i looked at her before leaving, hair down, dressed lovely in long dark clothes, and felt helpless smiling love...MS is unpredictable, and with med can be lived with OK...so she isn't going to pass on any time soon or anything like that...but pain flares, and worry, and wish for the better days, and when they come love them like colored glass singing...

[JRL]

Ray so sorry to hear. MS is not that rare, I have a niece with it and my comrade Big Bob's wife has it.

One of the best things she has found to help her live with it is good old cannabis.

[OBODAOUR]

Im so sorry to hear that cenny. Here's wishing long love filled happiness and health for you both!

Blessings
OBODAOUR

[cenacle]

october 17, 2005
11:35 a.m.
work
Kirkland, Washington

last week I had a phone interview with microsoft, it went ok but job sounds kind of dubious...told the job, a techie thing, will be replaced by automation in a few weeks...is this attractive? ha...this week two more interviews, one for a college prof job teaching editing, another doing tech editing, sounds pretty good...on it goes...look and look and look...shuck, jive, dance the dance, kiss the ass, smile, say thank ye, onto the next...heh...

[judih]

shuck, jive, dance the dance, kiss the ass, smile, say thank ye, onto the next...heh

this goes into the quote barrel.

a good one - perfect for any impromptu open mic situation, with or without choreography.

best to you both, R and KD.

judih

[cenacle]

october 21, 2005
3:20 p.m.
work
Kirkland, Washington

two more interviews yesterday, one a tech editor position, one teaching an editing class at a college extension program...more possibilities kicking around...eh...current job looks to be ending in the next week or so, maybe...how corporate middle management drones can leave the proles hanging on...

watching the events in the Empire's capitol, the chance that some of the high holy scumfucks might be getting the chains & cages they deserve...it's happenly slowly...

time to off the workweek & get along...hehe...

[cenacle]

october 24, 2005
8:41 a.m.
work
Kirkland, Washington

so, another last week of work come around, what next, dunno, the dull panic caused by threat of lost income, and here i sit in this job ending, here i sit, ready to move on, nowhere to move onto yet, it never ends, this shamble from shill to shill, from shuck to jive, always ass high for the boss-man's casual kick...yet whoosh there goes another email with resume off begging and ring ring please mistah boss man hire me suh i's do a good job i'd tell ya...

grafitti on a closed business in seattle:

WORK IS SLAVERY

amen...

[cenacle]

october 25, 2005
7:54 a.m.
work
Kirkland, Washington

first day of final workweek here turned up no new jobs, i hustled & limped along it, trying to make good of the hours, such struggling hours the ones most in need of cherish...and there is a stubbornness in me that refuses to let this again fucking nearing jobless situation drown me...i feel the heaviness, the pull of the waters below, and my arms tire and numb, but the thing that drives me in this world is never FUCKING ever give into the bastards who have no stake in my survival or demise...it's a thought i travel with often...when young, i worried what strangers saw when they looked at me, what they thought, now i could not care less...i've seen how pathetic and embarrassing even the best of persons are at one hour or another...none of us can avoid our crouch shitting over the bowl, or our times of lowness...

i just need a fucking job...the try goes on today...

[cenacle]

october 31, 2005
11:13 a.m.
work
Kirkland, Washington

last day of work, job ends on a monday oddly, i don't feel motivated to do anything, i feel angry that i came, did good work, now seeya don't let the door hit you on the ass...there are days that just don't bear much hope about them...just a feeling of doggedness, or what i called persistence bitch...here goes, another one, make it better than it should be...

[cenacle]

november 1, 2005
6:31 p.m.
seattle public library
seattle, washington

job hunting began fully today, long time at a job agency, no bites yet, keep along...

later library reading at length a book called 'revolution in the head' about the '60s, the beatles, LSD, counterculture...goes over each beatles song at length...

watching their development, song by song, influence by influence, and thinking dead ends are for ideas not people, not artists who are committed on every level to their work...

i'd rather drool ink onto a page if that's all i had left than stop...sometimes the beatles hit walls, sometimes they found ways through them, sometimes they went in other directions...

what lacking is enough...live influence...i've known that for a long time..and not sure how to resolve it...but if not out there then i'll dig deeper inside and find it...it's there...long as my mind is working, and can do things like job hunt, then the deeper shit is somewhere too...

discipline is the key to gift's great songs...i believe that like i believe little else...

into the evening now on my beloved old bike...