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Ahhh, not much of a drinker myself.  Sure is nice to flex tired old brain cells though. They do so like to gnaw at eachother with thoughts being such poor substinance.  Still waiting for a live one.

Doing the same mistake over and over again
is perhaps to some a definition of insanity
I mean, who takes the lessons learned and throwing away the results
in favor of the lesson
wishing perhaps one can regress into learning backwards
ending up on top and in front
of your beautiful mistake
and what is learned be damned
then what?
Answers only lead to more questions
sub define flaw equals zero sub
ergo madness is devine
so don't call me crazy
if I want to sip this wine

Nice Garden Stoney! 

Was reading on wiki the other day about cathinone's in Khat and how they are structually symiliar to mephedrone, which I guess was sweeping the EU by storm for some time before being scheduled.  Relatively hard plant to grow I understand.

It's like one big cosmic game of hide and seek...... with only one player...... who's really good at hiding.

Hey!  Thanks for the replies.... and well said.  Love you guys for your insight.

you have me moved toward that old line of thought about compensatory mechanisms.  About how people tend towards bolstering there weak spots.... Or rather, the big truck theory.  Along those lines I worry that my bleak thoughts on humanity are merely reflection of whats inside me.  Like, why do I feel the need, think I can afford to have such a poor spin.  What part of me am I protecting from critisism.

  I disike cliches, but there's something to being the light you wish to see.  but along with it comes the curse that whatever finger is pointed, you have at least two pointing back.

So I've been working in the trenches, doing emergency medical services for five and a half years now.  On an ambulance, 911 emergencies, over a wide and populated area.  I'm put in contact with a the entire spectrum of northwest united states society, from the homeless to the filthy stinking rich.  I've seen the best and the worst of people, seen them toss away their life as if it was nothing of consequence or fight for every breath.  I'm of the opinion there is nothing like the sureal moment of an immediate event in which you are confronted with a life threatening situation or personal crisis.... or just in need of urgent help.  At those moments a person is the most real.

I'd have to say, my opinion of humans has really gone down over the years as of consequence.  I'm often offended how people choose to live.  I mean, I do my best to approach every scenerio I'm presented with, from every possible angle in as non-judgemental fashion as possible (although, that is the job, to make decisions i.e. judgement calls for people.)   I actually gush with what I can only call empathy in an most human fashion for people and will bleed turnips even for the people I percieve as offensive, never casting a judging eye or  forcing the world according to me sermons on anyone.  The job gives me great personal satisfaction in such respects as I get to help people in those moments and make a difference in their lives hopefully.  Although I can't say a little of me doesn't bleed through in everything I do.

That all being said, I just don't think people in general are very smart.  Myself included of course.  I think we (the greater we) lack a greater awareness.  I guess thats what I'm saying.

Now if I could only remove myself from the equation, perhaps I'd have something.

What says you on the subject of the human condition?

Still having great success with piracetam.  I've taken to only using it on my work days the last few years (big spoonefull in the morning... little more in the afternoon) and I can really tell the difference.  Very little mental fatigue after a hard day making critical decisions for people... helps give me confidence that I'm making good choices.  Convinced my father to start taking it a year or so back and he reports that he can read books again where as he started to have trouble retaining information before that.  He  thought he was going to have to give up reading he was so frustrated.  He also notes more vivid dreams, but he takes it before he goes to bed.

That would be interesting to see.  I've spent alot of time in central oregon looking for rocks and have never spotted a ephedra plant.  Utah, thats another story.  The've got some variety I've collected called mormon tea, or also called whorehouse tea.  I think it's something like ephedra sinauca or sinica or something.... so I wouldn't imagine it'd be much of a stretch to see it in oregon desert.

Thanks ya'll!  Good to see some friendly icons.  I wonder whats new in the entheogen world lately.  Any new silver bullet dragibus teks floating around?  Who's got the bulk yellow horned poppy extracts burning a hole in their g.i. tract....  God I miss talking shop.  Maybe I should give calia zacatachichi another go, just so I can be all intillectual about it and stuff.  I coulda just done it wrong the first dozen times or so....

A~

Hi, my name is Avery and it''s been three years 2months and 4 days since my last internet forum post.  Well, at least since I've had reliable internet access.

A big howdy to ya'll anyways. 

Not much new here, still working the paramedic gig, living near portland.  What can I say, when life gives you crazy.... make crazy juice!

Much Love

Avery

Thanks Alice, yeah let me know.  I'm sure we can work something out.

A~

I have cactus cuttings and various other trade items.  Is hard to find that Phalaris Aquatica big medicine strain. (edit-or rather I'm looking for phalaris plugs, both the big medicine and the turkey red strains and nicotiana glauca seeds.)

No way the man could make more money off of legalized weed as it does the prison or law inforcement industries first of all.  

And say, isn't it still illegal to distill your own spirits in the U.S.?  (without the government getting it's cut.)

Can you imagining a Bereau for Alchohol, tobacco, marijuana and firearms?  Thats what legalization does.  I think MJ deserves better than that.  Private industry would flourish without taxation yah know.

I say, education based permits for all plants currently illegal.  You learn all the pertinent data, have a clean record, take some intensive educational classes taylored to the general classification and specific plants involved and pass a written exam, psycological testing and a background check on your own dime and pass an electric coolaid acid test and you get an expireable permit....like a drivers license to knock yourself out with.....would be better sounding to me.

A~

Awsome!  I think the last lecture I attended was Al Gore on climate change.  Always been a big fan of the Dalai Lama though.  What a nice guy...... he reminds me of Gandhi, only the Dalai probably never beat his wife.

legalize and tax!!!!

decriminalize, educate and regulate.