I just tried the Lady for the first time, and it was less than good. I made a small quid just to get some in my system, and after about 20 minutes smoked some enhanced leaf (should have been a 1mg dose). It hit me like a ton of bricks. It felt as if the floor was folding around me and I was sinking into it. The weird part is I know I've done it before, even though I haven't done it before. The smell of it, the taste of the smoke, the whole thing was like the most severe deja vu ever. It freaked me out and before I was completely through the other side, I pulled myself back. The whole thing only lasted about 10 seconds, and I don't want to go into the thought process I had, but I kept telling my sitter "you aren't supposed to do this stuff man". I had the distinct impression that something bad happened when I had done it before. Maybe it was a dream I had about it, because it was very dream-like. It may also be because it felt extremely close to doing nitrous, which I had a bad habit of doing about 10 years ago. The thing with nitrous is you basically come as close to death as anyone ever should without dying. I finally stopped doing it because I realized just how close I was getting. However with SD, you have to give way to it and let it take you. In a way it kind of is death, ego death. It lets your unconcious mind come to the forefront for a time and show you what it really has to offer, while making your ego take a back seat and watch the ride. I plan to try it again in a better setting for me, with a sitter I am more comfortable with. I am probably going to try a bigger quid because I feel like the sudden shock of smoking it may have been part of the problem. Let me know if anyone else has ever had the feeling that they had done it before, and if you guys think a quid would be a gentler transition than smoking. Thanks all.
Welcome, plasmabrain. You've found a good place.
The quid is definitely a gentler way to go. Quids are to smoking enhanced leaf as hang gliding is to free fall...
A well-trusted sitter and peaceful setting are critical. Folding/twisting space is typical: my first experience involved space folding up around me like an egg.
Don't be in a hurry. Sally can take you as deep (or deeper) as anyone would want to go. Take your time and enjoy the journey.
Thanks for the reply and the welcome.
I'm very excited about the possibilities with Sally, as I've been looking for something that can do what it does for you for a long time now.
The only thing that freaked me out the first time was the familiarity of the experience. I know I have never taken SD before, but the whole thing was just too familiar to me. I just can't explain why, and it's been bothering me ever since. It seemed like a memory I have, but one I had no recollection of before I tried it.
In a few days I plan to try it again at home with a quid and a very close friend sitting for me. I'm sure I'll be fine, and I'm sure it will be wonderful, I just wish I could figure out where this memory came from.
The "familiarity of the experience" is very freaky. It seems rather common as well. Very similar to something that sometimes occurs with DMT as well. IMO. See http://www.spiritplants.org/phpbb/viewt ... =5926#5926 (http://www.spiritplants.org/phpbb/viewtopic.php?p=5926#5926)
After my first heavy SD experience that's what struck me. How can something be so weird and so familiar at the same time. It kinda took back to a preverbal state, 6 months old or so.
I often flash on early childhood when on SD. One time I became the tree in fromt of the house I lived in until I was six. Another time the dial from my mothers old cake mixer became an alternative realitie control device, if I wanted to come down into my life I had to move the arrow straight up before it wore off.